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Thank god Helen was here today I needed some social interaction. She helped me clean and switch my room to the living room. I have fucking stuff everywhere because i dont have a closet ...oh well fuck it my room is huge...AWESOME. Helen and I are trying to sleep she has to work tonight the overnight shift..and im just run down. Im jacked on caffiene to the point where Im having racing thoughts and im grinding my teeth. I love a good caffiene buzz but it can go wrong really quick. Im bugging about money...to keep it short im used to having my utilities included in my rent and i dont like not knowing when or how much im going to get slammed with for bills because i usually dont have that much money. I really hope i sleep through the night tonight... its been a long time since that happened. i know this is a random blog but my frame of mind isnt right. penises are ugly. goodnight.